FYI – you may not like this if you aren’t into Apple or into rap but…give it a chance, especially if you are a Steve Jobs/Apple fan.

As I sit here working on my Apple computer with my Iphone next to me and my new Ipad by my side – I get it. Apple is a brand that I’ve used ever since my first Apple II GS as a kid. I’ve loved how the company and the brand has grown. Steve Jobs inspires me as a writer and a visionary and his products continue to work for me and amaze me. I think I like him even more now because he went to heaven so close to my Dad. I just imagine those two geniuses from totally different professional worlds chatting it up about life down here on earth…

So this Saturday night when my 16 year-old brother and I were up late on his computer, playing music and watching this guy on YouTube,  I was stunned. (Here’s the story on Timeflies). Creativity, talent, inspiration through music = success.  He posts videos every Tuesday and kids like my brother (and now me) buy the songs online. This song in particular’s proceeds go to a good cause which is a beautiful thing. Granted we have different messages and I don’t do scotch or drop language in my deliver, but I like what he’s up to with his movement…

He speaks to the viewer/listener through the beat with his passion, his clarity (okay maybe his looks).  He took that inspiring speech from Steve Jobs at Stanford graduation that we’ve all watched a million times and beat-boxed it to reach teenagers like my brother that speaks to an almost 35 year-0ld like me.

It proves my theory right, that our next generation needs to be spoken to through media – music, lyrics and movement. They don’t want to be talked to. They wanted to be moved…This is the stuff that changes people from the inside out and helps them keep going in the everyday. Music inspires and moves. It spreads and brings us together…Thanks to my brother Trey for the intro.

He’s not the first person or video I’ve come across like this that has shown me intentional music and lyrics inspire you to live fully. I’ve had a few other instances with this in the last few weeks.  One girl who goes to SoulCycle in New York. Another with a Mom who lives in Dallas that I met by chance in a line to meet Christine Caine (Phenomenal leader and inspirer). She saw a song on my page and sent me a video of her child. I’ll share their stories with you in two other posts this week.  But because  I’m in a business building mode today and hanging on my computer,  I just had to share this one…

Today is Blue and Gold game over at Notre Dame which is the spring football practice. It was always my Dad’s favorite weekend to come out to South Bend, see me, see the team, and get excited about the upcoming football season. We’d go to the team breakfast on Saturday morning with my brother Trey, my stepmom, my cousin Taylor, Aunt Susie and my Aunt Flo and we’d have a ball. Dad would get all into it and schmooze all the players and go talk to Coach Kelly – he just loved it. We’d get dinner at Bonefish that night and they’d be out the next morning. It was like my Spring dose of the family…my spring dose of Dad. 

This time last year, it was a rainy day, unlike the gorgeous day full of sun today. Thank God, we got to bring the kids to the breakfast to spend time with my family and we all got to go to the game, in the pouring rain. We all sat there and Dad’s beaming smile didn’t skip one beat. We just remember him saying, “Isn’t this great?” as the rain poured down on us…That night we went to dinner at Uptown Kitchen and just had a great family dinner.

Yesterday – I finished the final edit of my college story chapter and I spoke a lot about how grateful I am to have healed my relationship with the school and my Dad with the school.  I realized as I was writing on a whole new level, how lucky I was to have him send me there, to have him come out to see me all those times for those games. When I was in college struggling with my addictions – I longed for those weekends. So last night, when I felt that emptiness of him not coming, I couldn’t help but feel sad. Of course! He was my light. He was my Healthy Voice during a time when I couldn’t see my own and I miss him, but he’s not gone. His light is just shining from the inside out now, rather than from the outside in – which is really what the Healthy Voice is all about. Huh.

So today I’m choosing to heal in a different way. I’m sitting at the library, working on the book to get to my editor and then off to Gary Heavin at Curves, to write my forward. I know Dad is totally with me as I write and I know it’s okay that I miss him a ton, as I miss my whole family too. Wish I could see the bright blue eyes of my brother today. But that’s okay – will see them in just a few short weeks.

Love to my Dad up in heaven. Love and light to all those grieving or suffering. Know that you aren’t alone…and shout out to the Irish today….

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. He determines the number of the stars and calls them each by name. Great is our Lord and mighty in power; his understanding has no limit. – Psalm 147: 3 – 5

This song, “Lift me Up” by The Afters is what came to me this morning. Watch the video. Wherever you are at, remember – “we all fall down sometimes.” He lifts us up. His arms wrap around us and we can let go. This is the day we get to remember how much He loves us, and just keeps loving us, forgiving us, catching us. I hope you feel that today – how much He loves you even in your sin because we all sin. That’s why he died on the cross for us!

He’s there in the wind and everywhere. He is always, always with me in my heart. So, after that moment of gratitude – I decided to go for a run into a Leland. The mix choice was my “Book Ride” which includes Dad favorites, Christian rock and soundtracks that inspire me on the journey. Right at the started I heard, “Mandolin Rain” by Bruce Springsteen. (Hey Dad). Then I heard loud and clear, “All I know is that I’m not home yet, this is not where I belong…” A powerful song by a band called Building 429 called “Where I Belong”. Then as I get further along and I’m running by Lake Leelanau (I’m in total heaven on earth), I keep going into town a bit. I look to my left and see this little surprise – a beach I didn’t know about. Right when I see it, I’m on it. The song that comes on my IPod is Florence and the Machine “Shake it Out” which was coincidentally my Healthy Voice song choice this week on my blog.  (Here it is just in case you need to listen while you read

I’m moving to the beat of it…listening to the lyrics that tell me how I can shake off that Unhealthy Voice. “I am done with that graceless heart…It’s always darkest before the dawn.” (I’m thinking about how powerful this is at the beginning of Holy Week.) I’m approaching that beach that I’ve never been to…I pick up the pace. I even lift up my arms to the sky. I shake it out even. “And it’s hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him out. Oh whoa!” Then I get to the beach as the song ends and see this….

I got to walk out to that water and take in this huge view of open water, beach, fresh air, and huge sky, and to think I thought Lake Michigan couldn’t be more than a pond once. Now I love it. lol

I couldn’t believe this gift I’d been given. As if the nice run with good tunes wasn’t enough – God surprises me with a moment on an undiscovered beach at the end of a great song. A Total Healthy Voice Moment. An absolute and utter true release – pure connection to the spirit in my favorite way – multiple surprising ways that only a power greater than you could arrange for your enjoyment. Nature, open space, water, music. There I was just an hour earlier, missing my Dad (in a good way), enjoying my time with my family, little stressed about the book deadline, but okay. Just needed a breath of fresh air. Boy did I get one with my great run…What a God. Blown away yet again.

As if that wasn’t enough, as I started my run again I heard Florence come on again with this song:

Forget how good of a band they are, have you ever listened to the lyrics, from a Healthy Voice perspective? I know we think it’s that person we love or we want to love…and of course, it is…but really – think about it. What is the most powerful love you’ve got within you? Yup….that’s the love I feel when I hear it….how funny He can be sometimes that this was the next song on the playlist.

Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying “Lord I just don’t care”
But you’ve got the love I need To see me through

Sometimes it seems that the going is just too rough
And things go wrong no matter what I do
Now and then it seems that life is just too much
But you’ve got the love I need to see me through

Oh and apparently he wasn’t done yet because we got one of THE best sunsets at the end of the day. I took about 30 pictures. But this one was the best Check this baby out. Hope it brings you peace like it brought us!!

One of those ways is something I’m calling the Healthy Voice Power Up Song. They are songs that take you to another level with their lyrics, beat, and sometimes U2- like increasing crescendo (I think it’s called) and make you feel like you can achieve anything or be freed of any suffering. They make you feel empowered. Today’s is “Shake it Out” by Florence and the Machine.

I chose this song today because we all know it and because I’ve listened to this one having a Healthy Voice Moment (Another way to tune into it). I was on a bike out in the country with this playing on my arm and feeling the power on every level – legs moving with the spin of the wheel, road beneath my feet, wind blowing through me, rhythm of the song matching the rhythm of my cycling – cool stuff. Then, the lyrics just make it even better.

So I encourage you to listen to it in a self-empowering way (even if you have some grinding on the dance floor memory with it). Put it on your workout mix. Read the lyrics. Stand in the sun with no one and around and listen to it…It’s a true song of the dance between the Unhealthy Voice and the Healthy Voice and it can guide you to the power of what is true for your best self. I’ll end it with my few favorite lines of the song…

Shake it out, shake it out…it’s hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him off, oh whoa…

It’s a fine romance but it’s left me so undone, It’s always darkest before the dawn.

I find that our culture focuses so much on what I consider to be the Unhealthy Voice aspect of it. I think if we look at it in a different way, we can actually go deeper into the reflection and meaning behind the season. So I’m writing this today to help you go to that place – to get a deeper meaning than what we see on the surface.

What DO we see on the surface with Lent?

“I have to give up something. What am I going to give up?” We go into restriction mode, almost like the diet. We see someone with ashes and either judge them or judge ourselves and think “I should get ashes.” We feel guilty, because we are such sinners there is nothing powerful enough to give up to make up for our sins and what Jesus has done for us. “How could giving up chocolate possibly compare?” We compare ourselves to Christ dying on the cross (seriously?) or how big our friend’s sacrifice is, how much they are giving up. We beat ourselves up for not giving up enough, “I’ve got to do this perfectly this time.” The list could probably go on and on….

So I want to tell you what I’m doing today, what I’m doing over the next forty days and finish it off with 10 Tips on what you can do this Lent.

What am I doing today?

Well, this morning I did my meditation.

I’m listening to the soundtrack from the movie The Mission as I write this. I picked it up the other day at Waterloo Records for three bucks with a few others that remind me of Dad – music is a huge part of my grief process right now.

I’m going to get ashes with Ali this afternoon. I’m not going to walk in with my head down. I’m going to walk in with my heart open because I know the spirit lives within me. He’s not just up there, He’s in my heart. I found Him there almost four years ago and he’s always there. So today I can celebrate that. I can celebrate that he meets me where I’m at and loves me no matter what has happened or what I feel or think. If I just keep turning to Him, letting him lead me, leading an honest life, walking with Him beside me – I’m taking steps in His direction. He’s not there keeping score.(Granger Community Church just did a very powerful series on this. Click here to watch the preview.). That whole keeping score thing is mine, not his. He loves me. He. Just. Loves. Me. If I Let him and if I let him, I get a relationship with him. It’s AWESOME awesome stuff. But it’s just the stuff that works for me….we’ve all got our own path.

(Oh and when I go I’m going to have this image in my head. Check out the guy in the photo on the right. Pops at St. Matthews cathedral last Ash Wednesday, apparently ended up on the cover of The Washington Times and I didn’t see it until a few months after he passed. I just about lost it. But today I have a close-up of him on my dresser back at home. It’s angelic to me. He’ll be in the pew next to me, holding my hand in spirit. I know.)

Then later this evening Ali and I are going to yoga by candlelight. I plan on opening my heart again and releasing my mind on the mat.

Over the next forty days?

I started off my day yesterday walking around Town Lake, Austin listening to a podcast by Christine Caine, a profound leader and speaker from Australia. It was called “Leadership and Ministry Pt 5″ and she spoke about the heart, mind and soul. That would be the first of three times I’d listen to the podcast that day. She blew me away (as she always does) and said something very powerful about how leaders fall (and really anyone falls). She said, “We get caught up with external behavior modification rather than internal transformation and everything flows from the inside out.” What a great thing to hear the day before Lent starts. So, I’m setting an intention this Lent. It’s really just continuing to walk in the path of the Healthy Voice. Yes – it’s taking care of my physical self – working out, eating right for me. But it’s beyond that – the transformation stuff of  - keeping my heart, mind and soul strong. There is no better time than now for me to do that. I’m mourning the loss of my father. I’m more connected to God than ever. But he’s got to do the work and I’ve just got to be willing to go there with Him.

I’m also going to try to filter my Unhealthy and Healthy Voice – especially with those people in person, online and in social media who really just trigger my Unhealthy Voice. We all get triggered on Facebook. We are human. Whether they are train wrecks or we stay friends with them because we quietly compare our lives to theirs – maybe it’s time that we turn down our inner critic and give them less power, by noticing how much power we’re giving them, blocking them or doing whatever we have to do. For some of us maybe that does mean getting off Facebook all together, but there is a lot of positive stuff on Facebook and I know I’m going to focus on that – or at least that’s what Ali and I were talking about doing this morning! Maybe focusing less on someone else’s chaos will help us to go deeper within ourselves.

Meditation is a big part of my journey and connection to others. Both have to be. It’s about relationship with people on the path next to me and relationship with the spirit within that keep me strong. So the places that I find that – I’m just going to commit to connect more deeply in relationship.

So that’s what I’m up to…

10 Tips for How You can Go Within

1) Take some time today to do what helps you meditate and go within.  Paint, write, go out in nature, meditate, do yoga – whatever it is – go there.  Do some form of it every day, even for 10 minutes during this season. Don’t think there is some perfect way to meditate. THere is just a way that works for you…and you’ve got to find it. You may have already been doing it all your life and you just don’t know it, and it doesn’t have to be just one thing. It’s not just one thing for me!!

2) Pick something to get grounded in the physical. It will help you tap into that source within you – that light that is being muddled by whatever you are turning to that you haven’t been able to give up.

3) Go beyond abstaining from it. Go within. Don’t just abstain from it and think that the heavens are going to open up. Work it. Feel the feelings physically. How does it make you feel to be off of it? How calm do you feel in your mind? How much are your emotions coming up? Do you notice how much you’ve been using it to numb your feelings? Journal about them. Do not let them take over your life. Remember God is there to help you. That’s why you are doing this.

4) Turn to others. If you go 40 days without something, you are going to have withdrawals. When I abstained from sugar and flour, alcohol etc. it was hell. I had help. Get the help. Let the spirit meet you. Let your friends meet you. This isn’t about, “How do you not eat sugar?” It’s about, “How do I get through what feelings are coming up as I give this up?” It’s not about the SUBSTANCE, remember that.

5) Journal about it. Write down what you are feeling. If you are coming off something you’ve been using you are going to be feeling some seriously powerful emotions. Write. Them. Down. Use this as a time of reflection. It’s a better time than any and will help you stay focused when you want to go back to the substance.

6) Remember this isn’t about using lent to get perfect. My quote today says it all: “Remember that fear always lurks behind perfectionism. Confronting your fears and allowing yourself the right to be human can, paradoxically, make you a far happier and more productive person.” - Dr. David M. Burns. Not only is this not about being perfect. It’s not a season of working to get good enough for God. I don’t care how much chocolate you eat, what you’ve done, how much weight you’ve got – God Loves you. Period. If you don’t believe in him – that’s fine. Just know that you do NOT have to get good enough. You are loved no matter what. Put that on your mirror for the next forty days.

9) Focus on abundance rather than lack. We tend to focus on lack during lent – what we’re “giving up”. Focus on what you are getting by going within – awesome connection to the spirit in a powerful way. Switch your mindset from Unhealthy Voice to Healthy Voice.

10) Set an intention. For me it’s making sure I’m strong within and continuing the healing work in my relationship with God I need to do. Think about how you can go within and set an intention that goes beyond whatever substance you are giving up to get clear.

Okay, I think that’s enough work for you for 40 days…. Enjoy going within…

This has been the topic of the week. I’ve seen articles, facebook posts. I’ve gotten emails and texts because yes, I love this topic and makes me get very excited for my book to come out this Spring!

Here’s my perspective….Is this a public health problem? Yes. Do we need more access to fruits and vegetables over the more sugary processed stuff that keeps us sick and can government help us with that? Yes. That would be very helpful! But it’s NOT the answer just like the government doesn’t have the answer to our obesity problem. I believe the power is in the individual. Let me tell you why.

Here’s a scenario first. I’m on the board of the Salvation Army Kroc Center of South Bend. Last Saturday was the official opening of this mind-body-spirit focused community center for families in the area. So I’m behind a table and we’re signing people up for fitness activities and the Unhealthy Voice (Sugar triggers) start to show up (on a day when we’re opening a totally awesome holistic wellness center).

Someone brings us sitting at the table 3 huge plates of sugar cookies “for fuel”. I thank God I brought my apple and peanut butter snack so I don’t touch that cookie. I know some of you reading this might go. What? (Well, here’s what I know it does to me: It will 1)make my blood sugar rush through the roof, 2) make me want the whole plate and hungry for the rest of the day, 3) make my stomach hurt, 4) make my mind not be able to stop thinking about sugar 5) and in the long run make me start gaining weight because I’ll be back in the game with the sugar and hating myself for gaining the weight. It’s a crappy cycle. I digress.) About 10 minutes later a child comes up with his mom who is about 10, overweight, and he b-lines right for those cookies. There is nothing stopping him. The mom doesn’t take a second thought. The woman next to me can’t get them in his face fast enough. He plowed through those like a freight train. Now, I didn’t see the sugar as “Oh that’s bad.” No. No judgement here because I’ve plowed through my day of sugar. I looked at him with a knowing in my gut of what that is doing to him. He’s getting a total high and he is devouring it so fast because he wants it that bad, because it is like a drug you can’t get enough of, fast enough. If he keeps going he could get diabetes. He could lose his self-esteem because of his weight as he grows older and he could use food forever as his coping mechanism for life. I feel that kids pain on the inside.

I’m grateful I don’t have to pick it up today and it is NOT because I’ve got some awesome willpower. NO way. I wouldn’t have been sucking that stuff down my whole life if I did. I had enough of it and I just needed someone else to take it out of my diet. I needed people who’d gone before me with it and I needed to get knowledge around why that stuff makes me nuts. I still need those people and I still need a food plan that keeps me off it.

I’m not a scientist, grateful for that, but I’ve worked alongside experts in my own journey of getting off sugar, like Dr. Pamela Peeke, MD “The doc who walks the talk” who first called my sugar addiction out years before I even saw it. I’ve also worked alongside them in my professional journey at Department of Health and Human Services. But when I was there – childhood obesity was just starting to get attention so sugar wasn’t on the radar. Yeah, eat a little less but not so important. If it was I may have stayed a little longer. But the emphasis was more on “Let’s get kids moving and eating right to stop obesity,” and I left because I knew there was more to it for me. The “more to it” was finding out a few years later was what the sugar drug was to me.

But that’s in my book. The point here is that to me, I guess because I was there – I know government isn’t going to fix my personal addiction to sugar any more than they are going to fix my obesity problem if I’ve got it. Can they help with regulation? Yes because it will make it easier for those who want to get off it to do so.  But fighting government is a battle I’m not getting into today. Believe me I have fought the good fight and tried to get them to see, “There is more to this for me than just eating right and working out!” But me single-handedly trying to bring down some industry or fight them?  A losing battle. MY POWER is in taking care of myself mentally, physically, emotionally and making it my mission on this earth to empower others to get empowered so they can live empowered and by doing so empower the people they love. I am grateful I didn’t get the answer in government because it’s empowering me to empower you.

Blaming is an ugly face the Unhealthy Voice. If we’re blaming someone else or some big beast for our problems – we are NOT taking responsibility for ourselves. Who hasn’t done it?! There are many people I’ve wanted to blame for things in my life. It’s the victim card and it doesn’t work, especially if you are depending on some big industry like the incredibly powerful sugar lobby or the government to change things. My recommendation is to take a step back. Take a breathe. Think about YOUR power in this. Do you want to say, “They have to regulate this so I can stop eating sugar.” or “Once they start regulating it, I’ll stop eating sugar?” Do you feel empowered with that thought? I mean I know – any excuse to eat sugar, but seriously – haven’t you been giving the Unhealthy Voice that has been making you turn to it power long enough? Are you going to give it more power by saying, “I’ll fight you when the government says I can.”

So not worth the physical, emotional and mental insanity that sugar brings into the lives of those of us that are addicted to it. If they regulate it, great. Let them do their thing. Let those scientists fight on your behalf. But why not YOU fight for your Healthy Voice in your mind, body and spirit on your behalf. I spent toooo long wanting to blame those big guys, so much I even went into their faces by working in government. But it didn’t work. The only thing I could change in the end was myself and the way I was going to do sugar. Did I do it myself? NO. I had to get to a bottom with it. I had to get help from someone else who could get me off it and every single day I have to fight it, but I don’t crave it because I’ve got a plan that keeps me away from it. Do I want it sometimes, especially now that I’m going through grief? YES! But there is not enough sugar on this planet today to make me turn to it. I choose not to turn to it and if more of us CHOOSE NOT TO -more of us will feel powerful from within ourselves and not have to wait on government. How powerful does that feel? I don’t have to wait on government. I can make the change from within and for myself. This quitting sugar isn’t a willpower thing. It’s not purely a physical thing. It’s an insane mental, emotional and I believe spiritual thing. But in order to get out of that sugar addiction you’ve got to want you more than that sugar. You’ve got to want to live beyond turning to sugar.

So while you are figuring things out, I’m going to keep walking my road of the Healthy Voice. I’m going to choose not to pick it up today, or for this moment and I’m going to continue to do everything in my power to fight – not against any big institution but FOR your Healthy Voice. I’m committed to empowering your HEalthy Voice so that when your Unhealthy Voice comes up in life and wants you to turn to sugar or any other drug – you’ve got tools and you’ve got people to keep you strong so you do NOT have to do it – and that’s got nothing to do with government.

In case you want to see it, found a video on it too:

and another article:

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2012/02/120201135312.htm

For people like me, getting off sugar takes something much more, much bigger than a 30-day sugar detox or just saying “I’m getting off sugar.” It took me getting entirely off it – not on my own power, but someone else’s. That someone else was God. He put the people in my life that knew better than me what I needed to do to get me off of it. It could no longer be an intention. It couldn’t be, “I’m stopping this tomorrow.” I needed help NOW. This was not something I could pretend I could do on my own or just do because I was committed to it. I needed something greater than me because I wasn’t so great at stopping the sugar myself. I see it everywhere, everyday. I see people giving power to the sugar, letting it run their lives. I’ve seen my mom go through it. I’ve seen myself go through it. I do NOT want to give that stuff power in my toughest moments, like the grief I’m going through today. That’s why I went back to where they prescribed me my food plan, because I knew that I wanted to get anchored in it again as I walk through this pain. Thankfully I wasn’t turning to it to ease my  pain. That power is gone, thank God. But I did allow it back in my life and it was just too close. Right now I’m too emotionally raw, and a little stressed to let it be there. That’s okay for me. I know what I need today.

We have seasons of emotional hardship, of stress, of pain – we can’t begin to think we’re alone and we certainly do NOT have to give that sugar the power. But the moment we surrender and realize there is something more powerful that can come between the sugar and us (I promise you it’s stronger than sugar) is the moment we get a taste of freedom. That freedom has given me a life and today it’s giving me the clarity to live as I walk through this grief without turning to that sugar one day at a time.

So if you are in your first minute, first hour, first day, or first few weeks of trying to get through no-sugar, just know there are ways – bigger ways than you can imagine, AND resources to give you what you need. You are NOT ALONE!

 To gain self-control, give God control.

 Author Unknown

I walk into the locker room and I see a woman who often shows up a few minutes late and doesn’t get a bike. She is on a mission to get up there and get one – like if she doesn’t get it, the world will end. In the past, I probably would have raced her up there. (Ha)  Today, my Healthy Voice says, “You get a bike, you get a bike. You don’t, you don’t.” I’m chatting with the instructor Lisa outside of class because I haven’t seen her for a few weeks. I walk in and the bees are swarming. You’d think it was Black Friday but in the spin room. Is there a sale or something? Lisa says, “Go grab my bike.” I look up and I say, “It’s taken.” At this point, I want you to think about what you’d do. Would you freak because you were waiting all morning to do this class and now this crew just threw you off so you have this huge desire to throw someone off a bike? Or….do you respond and adapt to the situation.

Because of the gifts I’ve received in my recovery I was able without even thinking to just say goodbye to Lisa and find something else to do. I didn’t have to huff and puff or tell someone I needed to be there more than them. In fact my Healthy Voice piped in pretty quickly and said, “You got a half-marathon coming up in one month from today (huh), how about jumping on the treadmill?” And so I did, and I actually ended up having a very nice run. Between my tunes and the old-timers next to me on the treadmills running at a nice clip – I felt good. I was exactly where I needed to be and didn’t think once about that spin room. What a blessing for someone who used to be a complete exercise addict. Even better, I took my time – picked up the pace, slowed it down, had some water. I enjoyed my run where before I would have been trying to beat those guys. Growth, is all I gotta say.

Friends, workouts are important, but they aren’t the end of the world if you don’t get the one you want.  If you don’t get in a class or you miss one, or you are injured – do something different or enjoy the rest. Variety and rest and two beautiful things when it comes to your physical health. If you are open to adapting, you’ll probably find exactly what you needed, just like I did today. My HP had a different workout planned for me and that’s cool. Going with the flow is a beautiful thing! (not saying I do it all the time – but felt grateful to do it with a workout today).